Aspire the World!

"Aspire the world with our beautiful vision."

I found this in a bathroom stall in one of the art buildings.  I didn't really think much about it when I took the image. ( I take tons of pictures at once, i'm more focused on clear images rather than what the words say.)  But now that I'm thinking about it, I feel like this phrase is why I wanted to be an artist.  Art is so powerful and it's becoming more available because of the internet.  Art has such a vital part in my world and the world around me.  Normally I'm driven and hardworking, but every so often I feel defeated.  It's just hard to stay motivated when you know no one is watching.  I have to learn to want things for myself...trully.  Not because I want a good grade or I want to be the best.  Don't get me wrong, there's nothing wrong with wanting to be the best, I just can't let my own ambitions get me down, especially when I fall short.  

I just want people to look at my art, to interact with it and hear my voice.  My art is about the world I live in and the people in it....It's a little difficult when you're just MAKING and not showing. *sigh*

I heard their periods attract bears...

"I heard their periods attract bears."

hahahahahaha.

i thought this was funny.

What attracts you to a guy?!!

"What attracts you most to a guy?"

"Nothing, I'm gay!"

"sense of humor"

"his character and heart"

"his respect for my intelligence"

"how he hugs."

"good oral"

"smell"

"if he knows how to rock out!"

there's no picture perfect dream guy...well, there used to be one.  growing up my girlfriends and I would make silly lists of all the things that we wanted in a guy.  his hair color, his build, his eye color, his laugh, your first kiss and everything in between.  so yes, at one point i had a made up some magical guy that could never exist.  he had dark hair and sun kissed skin, his eyes were dark green and he had an fantastic build, believe me!  but just because I had this guy in the back of my mind does not mean that he's what I want or even what i had wanted.  A dream guy is only good for your dreams.  Flaws make us unforgettable and lovable.  So to all the guys reading this right now, don't be discouraged, every woman wants something different.  And i figure that men love the flaws in women as well.  

Perfect is boring.

I cheated.

"I cheated on my husband."

have you told him?

Depression and Therapy

"I wish I could binge, purge, starve, cut myself...

but I'm too afraid to go back to therapy.

I may be medicated,

I'm still broken."

I've been avoiding posting this one, because it makes me so sad.  No matter how much you binge, purge, starve or cut yourself...it will never make you love yourself.  What it does is gives you satisfaction for 10 minutes...I know therapy sucks...I've never been, but goodness...it can't be fun.  There was this guy in my class and he did this blog about his struggle with depression.  He was cutter and had huge anxiety attacks...reading his story might help.  not only does he tell us about his depression...but his struggle through therapy and medication.

http://letmeseeyourscars.blogspot.com/

his story is down at the bottom...the blog consists of things that made him feel better in his darkest hour.  the quotations and words might not hit you as hard as they did for him...but his blog is a map of his struggle and recovery.  I hope this can help...in ANY way.

and for those of you who have never seen a doctor about depression...it's worth it!!! I went with one of my best friends the other day...to their regular doctor.  The doctor had my friend fill out a survey, something that would help him determine how the depression was affecting his patient.  After that, the doctor handed my friend some sample medication and told us to come back in 5 weeks.  that's all it was. plain and simple.  Hopefully this medication works...we'll see.

Carnies

"I have a carnie fetish."

From Wikipedia:

Carny or Carnie is a slang term for a carnival employee,^[1] as well as the language they employ.^[2] A carny is anyone who runs a "joint" (booth), "grab joint" (food stand), game, or ride at a carnival. 

Sexual fetishism is the sexual attraction to material and terrestrial objects while in reality the essence of the object is inanimate and sexless. Body parts may also be the subject of sexual fetishes (also known as partialism) in which the body part preferred by the fetishist takes a sexual precedence over the owner. Sexual fetishism may be regarded as a disorder of sexual preference, or as an enhancing element to a relationship.^[1]

i think we all have secret fetishes.  we hide them because we're taught that we should be ashamed of our sexuality.   but we all have our thing, whether we admit it or discover it.  it's only natural! and like wikipedia said fetishes can enhance your relationship.  The more you know about yourself the further you can go...in all the things you do!

That ONE person...

"I'm afraid of living my whole life without finding that one person who makes my heart beat fast."

sometimes i think

we're all on this desperate search to fall in love.

to find that one person.

but i swear, 

the moment you stop searching,

a random acquaintance

and circumstance,

leads you into love.

life is all about the connections and relationships we make.  you will find that somebody, it just may not be for you right now.  not everyone finds their true love early in life, enjoy growing on your own...the single life has tons to offer! :)

it's monday...

the toughest day of the week,

but it's almost over!

I love girls.

"I date boys but i love girls."

i've found so many girls writing/admitting,

on bathroom stalls,

 that they love girls and not boys.

there have already been three comments that i've found so far

and i'm posting them.

because there must be many other women 

that feel the same.

you're not alone, ladies!!

here's something fun that i created in class the other day...

ENJOY.