Carnies

"I have a carnie fetish."

From Wikipedia:

Carny or Carnie is a slang term for a carnival employee,^[1] as well as the language they employ.^[2] A carny is anyone who runs a "joint" (booth), "grab joint" (food stand), game, or ride at a carnival. 

Sexual fetishism is the sexual attraction to material and terrestrial objects while in reality the essence of the object is inanimate and sexless. Body parts may also be the subject of sexual fetishes (also known as partialism) in which the body part preferred by the fetishist takes a sexual precedence over the owner. Sexual fetishism may be regarded as a disorder of sexual preference, or as an enhancing element to a relationship.^[1]

i think we all have secret fetishes.  we hide them because we're taught that we should be ashamed of our sexuality.   but we all have our thing, whether we admit it or discover it.  it's only natural! and like wikipedia said fetishes can enhance your relationship.  The more you know about yourself the further you can go...in all the things you do!

Playing kissy face...

"I've kissed more girls than boys...but (I) like boys."

welcome the blank canvas

"Why would you paint over art in an art building?? rude."

"quit bitching and make something new."

"True, but now we have a blank canvas."

This is a conversation I found on campus, in an art building, obviously.  I was truly sad to see all the old graffiti and writings leave with a fresh coat of white paint, but a blank canvas means a fresh start.  A new place and space for new conversations.  I often find myself wanting to trash old projects and forget they ever existed.  Eventually we fade out the old and make things better.  One thing can't stay the best and greatest forever, or nothing would ever change and progress.  anyways....welcome the blank canvas while still having remorse for your old work.  

ps- i apologize for my.  i know i know...there's no excuse.  but to make up for it my friend Sara found this hilarious video.  it's random, weird and funny...and if you don't appreciate it, then i don't know what you find entertaining.

From Billoon45:

Let GO.

So, let go, let go
Just get in
Oh, it's so amazing here
It's alright
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown."



It's not that these lyrics are particularly fascinating, but it's the fact that this song has been on my playlist for a while now. It's almost a response to the song I posted just yesterday. There's beauty in everything, according to this, and when we learn to let go and get in to what we've created or what life has given us we can find something to enjoy. hopefully that's true...

here's the wonderful video for

"Let GO"
by Frou Frou

I Don't Know How to be Happy

"I don't know how to be happy."

I know, I feel like everyone around me isn't real sometimes. Seeing everyone else happy, makes me feel even more alone. I feel like people act happy because it's kosher. Or they're oblivious. But there are so many treasures in life...they're hidden amongst everything else, but I swear they're there. I found this wonderful song, it's a little sad, but this artist is amazing. Her name is Kate Havnevik, and the song is "Unlike Me." Visibly, the video is soothing as well. For me, she made me realize that I'm jealous of others that can be constantly happy, but that I'm not alone. I felt relief, when I realized that someone else feels the same way. So, I thought I would share it. Her other music, is excellent as well!!

the lyrics are what got me:

" There are no guarantees in life
Not for the present,
Nor for the future.
All I know is
That I'm here;
Don't know for how long.
I love the way
You live so intensely
Enjoy every minute of life
With space to swing
Your arms around
Laughing loudly

Unlike me
Unlike me
Do you think I'm strange?
Unlike you
Unlike you
I am not pretending..."


here's the link:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A8cUrmCg64A


i'll try to embed the video...it doesn't want to work for me now.

New Friends...

"Nearly everyone I know is disappointing to me. I need new friends."


She said it best.  I've lost a lot of friends over the years and it sucks.  But what sucks the most, is the fact that you really can't do much about it.  This reminded me of the the movie and the book, "Fight Club."  Fight club is great at defining the phrase, "single serving friend."  We've all had single serving friends, we meet them once and then they disappear into the infinite universe.  "Fight Club" is a great recollection of a man's struggle with the world, that book is awesome by the way...if you've watched the movie and loved it, then the book will drive you wild.  

This is so strange by the way...being behind these words, feeling like I have to give advice.  But that wasn't my intent.  I don't feel apt enough to advise anyone else...the point of posting these images, is to make our human connection obvious.  I'm kind of getting the hang of it...hah....right...?

The F word

"I can't stand myself"
"then become someone you can stand"

good advice....I wish it was that easy. But maybe the easiest way to relieve dissatisfaction with yourself is just forgiveness and not change. Or, maybe some of us, need both.  I've struggled with being able to notice my flaws without getting tripped up about them.  I feel like I let my mistakes get to me, I let them define a part of who I am.  But in actuality, my mistakes don't define me, because they cause me to change.  

Girl Talk!

"Girl, no one knows what they are doing with their life, if they say they do, they're lying to themselves. (and p.s. life is more fun unplanned!)"

It's nice to have some reassurance. Sometimes I feel like everyone around me knows exactly where they want to be and they know exactly how to get there. I have goals, sure! But do I know what I'm doing with my life? Sometimes I get a grasp, but most of the time my goals are shifting and changing. It's nice to know that I'm not the only one. Because you're not really lost if you're lost amongst a crowd.