I cheated.

"I cheated on my husband."

have you told him?

Depression and Therapy

"I wish I could binge, purge, starve, cut myself...

but I'm too afraid to go back to therapy.

I may be medicated,

I'm still broken."

I've been avoiding posting this one, because it makes me so sad.  No matter how much you binge, purge, starve or cut yourself...it will never make you love yourself.  What it does is gives you satisfaction for 10 minutes...I know therapy sucks...I've never been, but goodness...it can't be fun.  There was this guy in my class and he did this blog about his struggle with depression.  He was cutter and had huge anxiety attacks...reading his story might help.  not only does he tell us about his depression...but his struggle through therapy and medication.

http://letmeseeyourscars.blogspot.com/

his story is down at the bottom...the blog consists of things that made him feel better in his darkest hour.  the quotations and words might not hit you as hard as they did for him...but his blog is a map of his struggle and recovery.  I hope this can help...in ANY way.

and for those of you who have never seen a doctor about depression...it's worth it!!! I went with one of my best friends the other day...to their regular doctor.  The doctor had my friend fill out a survey, something that would help him determine how the depression was affecting his patient.  After that, the doctor handed my friend some sample medication and told us to come back in 5 weeks.  that's all it was. plain and simple.  Hopefully this medication works...we'll see.

Enjoy life, then!

"Tempus edax rerum"

"(Enjoy life, then)"

I chose this one for today because I've been completely swamped with "things to do."  not even things that I want to do...but things i have to do.  It's like I have this ticking clock in my head telling me that I'm losing time...precious precious time.  I always go off and make art, when I should really be studying...when I should be running errands...but it seems to me...like all that crap is the waste of time.  Because at then end of the day, i'm artist...i need to be working and producing...no worrying about exams...blah.

i just want to enjoy life.

and i'm always like...

once this exam is over,

then i can.

when spring break starts,

then i can start to just enjoy life.

but my ambition attacks my relaxation.

ahhh...i just can't find the balance.

A little girl on girl...

"I've always wanted to try a girl on girl experience, but I have a BF and no one to explore with."

"Come find me, babe!"

there's no reason to keep this a secret or to feel ashamed.  with the media displaying women as sexy lustful objects, it makes sense that you're curious.  The response to this comment makes me think that there are plenty of girls out there experimenting!  Don't be afraid of what makes you happy.  I have a few Gay forum links in the column to the right.  they might help you feel more connected to others like you.